this time, mean it 


Yesterday, I received a good lashing from my stern Dad for the first time in perhaps two years or so. Of course, it was about non other than my studies. And my future, for that matter. Even though he never really released all that pain and anger that has been bubbling up inside him for some time now, I always knew it disappointed him for us to come home with unexceptional results. And yes, this has been going on for quite some time now.

 

Truth be told, I really needed the good lashing. It was like a wake-up call saying, "Life isn't like a bed of roses or a walk in the park anymore. The older you get, the more challenging everything will be and whether you like it or not, you are gonna face it". This was exactly what I needed to hear, even though I've been aware of it for quite some time now. I'm not saying that things will only get done when he shouts and gets angry at us - although it is partly true - but every once in awhile we'd like to be reminded of what we have to put up against, what we have to work for and how hard it's all gonna be. We need to be reminded that someone other than ourselves actually cares for our future. And it's times like these when I need that one person who can cut through all the bullshit I display, seize me up and push me to do the best. That person would be my Dad. Sure he can be a little too hard on us sometimes, but when you sit back and look at the bigger picture of it all, he actually means well. He always does.

So starting from the 1st of January, changes are going to be made and my wings of being so carefree are going to be clipped. At first, I couldn't exactly comprehend each sentence my Dad spoke as it was more like raging fire bursting out from a dragon's mouth. But I understood it all crystal clear, nonetheless. Not because he was burning with rage right before my eyes, but because whatever he spoke was blatantly honest and was of nothing but the truth. In hope of not having to be a victim of another lashing, I've come to terms with the changes.

• Facebook will be strictly off limits.
• I will spend the exact same amount of hours burying my head in books as I do the Internet. 
• If I have nothing to do, find something to do. 
• Never think you will have another chance at your future, because in reality, there is no such thing. 
• Keep in mind, "The harder you work for success now, the easier and brighter your future". 
• No more blogging and updating my blog every given day. 

These are the many few changes and things I need to keep in mind, I can think of right now. 

My eyes have been opened and suddenly it feels like everything has finally sunk in and taken to heart. No more will I sit around and do nothing. No more will I stand by the sidelines while opportunities pass me by. No more will I accept red marks and borderline results on my report card. Most of all, no more will I feel that it's okay to have bad results just cause' my friends have bad results too. Cause' all these things that have been registered into my mindset and seemed oblivious at first are simply a whole load of CRAP!

For the first time in a long while, I finally feel and know that I'm better than that - and I can do so much better than average. People believe in me, and it's time I start believing in myself. This time, I'm meaning it.

"The great successful men of the world have used their imagination…they think ahead and create their mental picture in all its details, filling in here, adding a little there, altering this a bit and that a bit, but steadily building - steadily building." - Robert Collier


P.S - I won't be blogging so much anymore as my time on the internet would be tightly limited. So, if there's anything, please contact me at kristen_alyssa747@hotmail.com 

With love, Krissy.