the final goodbye


This is it, loves. This is the last day I get to use the Internet, the last day I get to blog and the last day I get to Facebook. So, consider this a goodbye post. I certainly don't mean 'goodbye' forever, but just for the year 2010 - until SPM is over and can be considered as my past.

As said in the post This Time, Mean It , I've come to terms with what I have to sacrifice so that my future is secured and without the slightest doubt or hesitation in mind, I plan on sacrificing all that needs to be sacrificed - mostly, everything that is distracting.

A while ago, I'd woke up and joined my Mum on the couch while she was watching Oprah. Even though still being in a sleepy daze, I prised my eyes open and made sure I didn't miss anything. On this episode of Oprah, Simon Cowell was her guest star and normally being the most vulgar and straight-forward man on live telecast - alongside Gordon Ramsay (the chef) - he was rather toned down and humorous this time. And truth be told, I like the toned down and sweet Simon. Him, being one who can spot talent from afar, brought along a number of his own people (performers) and entertained the crowd. Of course, they were the best of the best (they had to be) from all over the world.

And again, the realization of the competition being high in everything in this world - every job, every passion, etc. - hit me. And if I'm not one of the best, I won't have a chance.

Since the year 2009 is saying it's final goodbye and the year 2010 is already knocking on my door, It's time for change. This time, on the final day, New Year Resolutions are normally set and plans to make the most of the last day is a must-do. But I want to somewhat vary and be set apart from the crowd, so I'm not setting any New Year Resolutions this year cause' knowing myself too well, I don't ever follow through with it. Along the way my thoughts will change, my opinions on things will be erratic and at some point of time, I'll be lost.

So, this year... I'm just going to walk into the year 2010 with nothing but a fresh start in mind. And thanks to Crystal for this heart-felt reply, "All it takes is a heart that's open and willing to be taken on a journey... travel it well, with all your heart, eyes wide open to see the beauty around you... and you'll find your home", I shall walk into the year ahead with a heart that's open and willing to be taken on a journey.

P.S - Happy New Year, world!