I'm sorry 

..because sometimes it's all that needs to be said.

The year of 2009 is slowing drawing to a close and just recently, I was hit by reality. I realize I've been so caught up in my own world, that the others around me - my loved ones, especially - have been neglected and chucked aside. Unintentionally, of course. But that's no excuse for my self-absorbent actions.

In my last journal entry, I'd promised to be whatever my loved ones wanted me to be - a movie affiliate, a shopping partner, a shoulder to cry on. Till today, this promised still remains only in my memory and have yet to be portrayed. Seemingly being hit by the realization of this, tomorrow would be the first day I'd get to go out and breathe in the city air and just have a good time with the small bunch of them.

I chose to write an apology post to those whom I've mistreated, took for granted, not appreciate and mostly, just ignored. I know it's too late to justify my actions and prove my true colours, but I suppose I should start with, "I'm Sorry". I've been called so many things, "a snob", "a backstabber", "a rat" and sometimes, they aren't too imprecise. One thing still stands, I just don't give a rats arse as to what's being said about me because most of it comes from those who don't even know me.

And for those who do know me, just cause' I don't greet you with a simple "Hi" or "Hello", doesn't mean I'm being snobbish or ignoring you. It most probably is/was unintentional. Just cause' I don't reply your comments and messages via text/MySpace/Facebook doesn't mean I'm being a snob either. Cause' sometimes, I've got other important things that need to be at the top of my priority list and lastly, just cause' I don't text you first, doesn't mean I'm not waiting for you to text me.

I also realized that this is the year when things, good things, actually do come to an end. Friendships were broken, and hearts were shattered. See, things do come to an end during the course of time. But I guess, they only do come to an end because something even better is awaiting our attention. It's up to us to stay strong and move forward when all else comes crumbling down.

I'm not one who'd sit back and watch everything before me turn to dust.