"I'm at the starting line for the rest of my life and I'm ready as I've ever been".
Whenever I'm on the verge of breaking down or am in an emotional state, hit by the realization that everything around me will soon change and whether I like it or not, I'm growing up, this lyric of a song from Miley Cyrus comes to mind.
Waking up at 6 a.m. on the first day of school felt similar to that. I awoke, got cleaned, put on my uniform, combed my hair, tidied my bed and just in the nick of time... I was in school. Neither too early nor too late. Just in time to accompany my bunch of friends who were waiting for me (and the others) at our usual spot.
It wasn't till' I made my way up to my class that I felt a thrust of nervousness wash over me. I solemnly doubt it was about seeing everyone again after a mere month and a few weeks of school holidays or even about welcoming the same uniformed routine of waking up before the sun rises and heading to school to study. So I suppose it's cause' I'm growing up. It's my last year in high school and I don't want to miss a thing. What more, waste it. I unexpectedly became vulnerable towards that thought. Slightly emotional, even.
I'd made a promise to myself and to those who love me, that I won't waste the last year of high school settling for something lesser than what I know I can have achieve. Without any second thoughts, I'm gonna prove myself. But sometimes, I feel that it's easier said than done. Everything is, once you think of it. That's one characteristic I wish I didn't have: Negative Thinking, to name one of the few.
This first week of school was everything but relaxed and laid back. I'd received quite an amount of homework on the first day itself, which was due on an impossible deadline. Without caring about the teacher's hasty demands, I did things my way and took my time. I know it's not such a good example to set on the first week of a new year, but being the rebellious little me, I couldn't help it.
No more taking my sweet sweet time, No more relaxing, No more peaceful naps and sleep, No more taking the easy way out. These words come ringing in my head as I speak it out to remind myself.
I just hope to be unconditionally happy despite whatever hurdles life acquires me to jump pass.
Take the high road, love. I remind myself again.
I'd made a promise to myself and to those who love me, that I won't waste the last year of high school settling for something lesser than what I know I can have achieve. Without any second thoughts, I'm gonna prove myself. But sometimes, I feel that it's easier said than done. Everything is, once you think of it. That's one characteristic I wish I didn't have: Negative Thinking, to name one of the few.
This first week of school was everything but relaxed and laid back. I'd received quite an amount of homework on the first day itself, which was due on an impossible deadline. Without caring about the teacher's hasty demands, I did things my way and took my time. I know it's not such a good example to set on the first week of a new year, but being the rebellious little me, I couldn't help it.
No more taking my sweet sweet time, No more relaxing, No more peaceful naps and sleep, No more taking the easy way out. These words come ringing in my head as I speak it out to remind myself.
I just hope to be unconditionally happy despite whatever hurdles life acquires me to jump pass.
Take the high road, love. I remind myself again.
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