when the arrow points back at me

Sometimes, when everything I've worked for comes crashing down or just splats back in my face, these are the many criticisms that come to mind. I just think it, but instantaneously feel as though an arrow just pierced through my heart. I feel worthless.

But then I look on the brighter side, to where the grass often seems greener and think...try to rationalize things.

And after awhile I realize that I shouldn't put the blame on myself for every damn thing, I just need to stand on my two feet and pick myself up. I shouldn't be wasting my time self-criticizing myself, instead I should do something about it - start all over, if that's what it takes.