freaky friday

Nothing but love for my vampire boys ;p

It's evening here in KL, the sun has set and the skies are painted with a beautiful shade of blue. I just woke up from a wonderful afternoon nap - still groggy but it'll soon wear off. I'd gotten another day off school due to Deepavali, which is officially tomorrow. Am lovin' the days I spend at home more and more.

The most productive happening of today has gotta be studying. I'd spent a few hours on revising my weakest subjects - History and Accounts. I'm feeling pretty accomplished, slightly that is. I hope the results of my finals are an improvement.

But just as I was about to plan my day with events, my companions bailed on me. Since it was last-minute planning, it was to be expected. It's just so frustrating when I have to continuously spend the hours of the day, feeling caged up in my own home - it's ridiculous.

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It's also ridiculous how much I think about you in a day. I thought I'd said the word 'goodbye' to being lovers and meant them. But I'm afraid not. It took me two years to be fully cleansed by that obsessive feeling I had of you. && now it's all coming back. I don't want to re-live those moments but at the same time, i don't wanna lose them. But it's just gonna be put aside. I need to focus on the reality of you not having a change of character and that you're always gonna remain the way you are. So, step aside you unrealistic wishes and hopes, i've got a life to live...