So unexpectedly, butterflies fluttered in my tummy yesterday. I tried to deny myself the fact that you were the cause of such a feeling for quite some time, but at the end of that very wonderful day, I decided to
give up self-debating with the feelings of my heart.
I've known you my whole life, but you know, just the basics of a person's personal info; your name, which school do you go to. You will usually just walk pass me and ignore my existence or sometimes, just shoot at me one of your charming smirks. But that would be all.
But yesterday, yesterday was different. Different than all those times you smiled at me or just stricked up a conversation with me ( because I was speaking to your friends) combined. Yesterday, we talked for hours and you made me laugh so hard till' tears flowed from my eyes. I never thought I could be so comfortable around you.
I don't usually get along with people so well in such a short period of time, but recently, a change has taken place within me. I'm feeling more outspoken, perkier. It is as if I don't have a care in the world. And trust me, it's a really good feeling.
I remember all of us sitting around the coffee table and spilling the beans of our buried past - it was as if we were playing a game of "Truth and Dare" and the dice was rolling. That's when you sprung on me questions I swore to never give an answer to. But yesterday, hesitantly, I answered you anyways.
I still can't wrap my head around how sweet you were when you insisted that I sat next to you at all times, when you willingly paid for my meal or when you kept poking my sensitive parts and gripping my hand each time I tried to get you back by reaching out to pinch you. I still remember our very intense conversation on relationships, the people we've dated and how it all crumbled to pieces.
Whatever it is, whatever it may be, I know for sure that I enjoyed your company. Even if it lasted only for a few hours. I may never get to relive that day again, or may never get to share better times than this with you, but at least for those few hours, I felt my heart beat a jagged rhythm. A rhythm that has been a foreigner to my heart for quite some time.
Until this day, I'm still not able to pinpoint what I'm feeling for you or have no idea as to where this 'thing' between us will be heading, but I'm thankful, more than ever, that you were the reason of every humanly feeling I felt that day.
It is because you made me feel something I needed to feel.
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