After dark

A fraction of the burden I've finally come to terms with has been lifted off my shoulders. My first Intervention Test is done and dealt with. As much as I hate to admit it, I was aware that my level of confidence was not what I had hoped for it to be as I only put 110% of my effort a week before I had to sit for my exams. I was completely unprepared and my mind was all over the place - I struggled to memorize important notes on the day of my exam itself. What a stupid an irresponsible move I tend to keep making...



It's already been two weeks since and slowly, the results are slowly being handed back. I've received the results of every subject except for English and Economics. From the looks of the results I've already received, no one will be too over the moon and ecstatic about it. I, myself, am not. Mainly because after sitting for the Science paper, my confidence was running high enough to believing I could at least obtain an A for the subject but as luck would have it, I only managed to obtain a mere pitiful C. Although, I can't say the same for my Accounts paper cause' this time, I friggin' passed! That being said, you should know that I don't usually pass this particular paper. It usually sits along the lines of the ones that mark red, accompanied by Additional Maths and occasionally, History. And so this was something to be content about.

Besides the usual, I've welcomed dullness into my life. Because that's exactly how it is nowadays. Everything is on solid lock. My wings are still clipped. I don't get to gallivant around town with my girlfriends anymore or get to step out of my house for more than a few hours. It's suffocating being stuck in the house all day, being surrounded by the four walls that sometimes seem as if it is caving in on me. But no matter how much I express my hatred to such a pitiful feeling, it's a feeling I'm gonna have to endure for the rest of the year. After all, only a few months to go and then... I'm a free bird!

Health-wise, I can't lie and say that I've never felt better because truth is, I don't. Ever since the year 2010 began, I'm aware that I haven't been following my exercise routine as well as I have promised myself to do so.
And only TIME is to be blamed for such lack of energy and alertness. There just isn't enough hours in a day anymore. I only felt it when my week started to get crowded with all the tuition and after school classes. You have no idea how much the feel of freedom is longed for.

The only word that keeps ringing in my ears is "Patience". And in a matter of no time, everything will pass.