I found the reason in you






Over these past few days, questions have been constantly pestering me - questions by people whom await my answer. The few that appear like roses amongst the thorns are, "What do you need me for?", "Why do you need me in your life?" and the classic, "Why am I important to you?".

I find myself answering in such dullness: "Because you just are", "Because I don't know what I'd do without you", "I've been so used to having you around". And I know only too well that answers like that are never enough.

Just the other day, while I was texting with Sam (old school friend), about the topic I'd brought up about some other guy, after telling him I still needed him in my life - whether I'm with someone else or not. He then replied, "Why would you need me when you'll have him?". I was blank - I couldn't give him an answer nor be sure of what the answer should be.

I tend to always say I need people in my life, and I mean it but without having the perfect reason for it.

So, with that thought still pondering loudly inside my mind, I'll type out what it guides me to say...

As I bask in the comforts of my territory and think of the possible reasons ' why' I do need them - my loved one's, especially, the only reason that paints a clearer picture is that they make my life a better place to live in.

But I won't rest now, cause' I believe that there are more to it than just that.

To wonder why you need the people in your life, you need to know why they have come into your life in the first place. Their presence in our lives hold a meaning - a reason, despite whether we understand or not.

What is it about them, that when everytime they're away, we lose all our feel of happiness - everything seems dull?, that whenever they have a bad day, our day doesn't seem so much brighter after all?, that when everytime they say they miss you, somehow you'll know it's the truth they speak? or that everytime they hug you, let alone encourage you, you can't help but to shed a tear - cause' you know you can't keep anything from them?

It's these little things I share with my circle of close friends. The little things which lie in the beauty of human nature - everyone having their own way of expressing their concealed feelings towards their loved ones.

As for myself, I need them cause' they are the one's whom lend me their ears to hear what I have to say, leave their shoulder vacant for me to cry on in times of misery, lend me a helping hand in complicated situations, provide me with just just the right advice I was waiting to hear,
whom will respect my decisions (within boundaries) on the highway of life I lead, whom will trust me despite how torchering it may be for them, whom have took the time to teach me the things I wouldn't know know - they've taught me so much. And I need them cause' love is all I've felt for them since they walked into my life. The list goes on and on...

Yes, these treasures hold an importance in life - my life, the treasures that we so often overlook or choose to ignore in hope of something better. The treasures that we have a lack of appreciation for. Or maybe these are the little things we'll only appreciate when being reminded of.

If you'll ask me again, "Why am I important to you?", I'd simply smile and say you mean the world. No, wait, you mean so much more than that. I may never find the perfect words to interpret my feelings nor express them through my actions but If you're reading this, you'd realize I typed this out with all honesty - because I wanted you to know what's on my mind. Because' somehow, you matter enough for me to care. Just because you'll never be replaced.