In her own words.


I'm feeling rather disturbed about certain individuals. Can't say if it's because of the recent changes to the friends i now tend to stick with, or if it's due to past experiences. Though, i have a strong feeling that it's a combination of both. Because no matter how hard i try to be nice to them, to be there for them, they always await something more. They expect me to be there for them at all times, to attend to their every whim. Well, that's not me.

Such a disappointing revelation, i know.

But when i start to think about it, i then realize that there's hardly anything i can do. Like it's a lost cause. Though apologizing would be a start, i doubt it could be an impact on things to go back to the way they were. If all attempts at being nice and trying my best to apologize in every possible way i can, i guess it's a sign then. Don't you think so?

Besides, my dignity needs more respect then that.

I don't see how this thing is going to resolve by me keep apologizing and by them not forgiving me. It's pointless.
So, from here on out, i'm just gonna let everything sail by itself to see what happens.
Spending my precious time with people who are worth me time, who will respect me, love me and the one's who actually do walk the walk as my best friends are the one's I actually do look forward to.
I believe that's the best I can do.