Cause' I'm emotional like that and comfort is all i need.


Something has been really bugging me. && i need to let it out and just say it.


I just feel like a disappointment.
To my parents, grandma and most of all, grandpa.
They always told me to strive for the best, never settle for the rest.
They taught be the good and wrong.
They also have continuously been tall, strong towers i could always fall back on.
Supporting me with whatever i choose to do in life, the rational choices.
While they have been doing the best for me, i feel like i haven't been doing my part.
I have been crushing their hope on an awesome future for me.
I've been going against their dislikes.
I've been taking opportunities on sneaking around.
Being a bad little girl, which some might say.
When all i had to do was basically to own good grades in school.
Being the daughter any parent would have waited all their life for.
Being the niece any aunt would be happy spending all her money on.
& being the granddaughter of a grandmother whom has loved her every single second since the day she was born.
I admit i'm not perfect myself.
I do have flaws, freckles and zits.
My grades do get flunked in exams.
I'm not a straight "A" student.
I don't get everything i want, when i want it.
I hardly listen to my parents when i'm suppose to.
I get my heart broken every once in a while...

Cause' I just want to do things my way for a change. Maybe now is too soon to ask for freedom on having a say in things. Or maybe i just never had the guts to go against my parents strict rules and regulations. Who knows? I might get what i wish for or maybe not.


All i wanna do is be a better person. Living life to the fullest.
Not wasting it on hypocrites, backstabbers, the liars or even the pretentious faggots.
Learn to be more open towards people but never too open till my heart ends up paying for my wrong judgment.
Accepting the fact that i might never get what i want all the time.
To aim for the best in life and never settling for the ordinary.


That's what i live for...