.the screw up.

I gotta say what's on my mind cause it's killing me inside.

I can honestly say that you've been on my mind for quite some time.
I told myself that i was already over you but i guess i'm just not.
I guess i'm not used to seeing you with another girl, i'm not used to seeing myself without you.
It's complicated how one minute i could hate you so badly and the next, miss you so endlessly.
I really did love you but i guess i'll never know weather you meant it too.
Well, my heart is aching and my knees are shaking.
I just don't know what to do.
After we went our separate way, i realized how much i've missed you and wanted you back.
You said you felt it too.
But then i found out something i never thought you'd do in my wildest dreams.
How could you do this to me? I just never even saw it coming.
I couldn't believe that i was so blinded by you that i didn't even listen to what the others were saying.
You said you loved me and the stupidest thing i did was believe you.
The fact that you went on being with her a few days after we split, already proves you never did.
The truth is, you love both of us.
I just couldn't believe that this was happening to me.
After you crushed my heart, you expect me to give you another chance?
I'm out of chances, i'm out of trust for you.
Letting you back in my life now just seems like a good idea gone bad.
You tried to tell yourself that you were in love with me but we both know you weren't.
Like you said, 'i need someone'. Those are the words i'll always remember.
For now, i'll just let her by my replacement. Let her be the space i'll never fill again.
Cause i know i deserve better, better than all the crap you're making me feel right now.
It's just not the way it should be.


P.S - i guess you were never worth it after all.